Tuesday, April 7, 2020

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So, just celebrate the reason we don't do things I did that bother people and make them say I'm in trouble like it matters?

It's an easy thing to do, as everyone knows of this.  They probably recite it to their children, LOL.

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If we already knew, we wouldn't do it.

The "Social Butterfly"

My dad keeps insisting I'm in trouble just for not being perfect or silly reasons he didn't inform me of and won't respond about with his behavior.

I meet people I like, and people really noticed this one older lady.  People I like who are prestigious consider me in trouble with them too.  It seems the older lady I like is going around to those people and others I know to a degree and considered quite the "social butterfly" but while I'm in trouble for no reason.  So, I can't feel okay in life, also picked on for my race like it's bad.  She just keeps inspiring people with the positive spirit she shows, getting popular with a fresh palette and no social background check like I have to deal with it so happens.  People are all impressed with her being greeted upfront like she's always good because of what they've "seen in her." Like, she keeps going around and juggling people's messages like "she's all that" in a good way for her, like she knows exactly what to do, which she does and which is good but in a way people cling to all over the world and but like I'm bad and she's weaving in and out of my life and limitations, where I can't be treated like I'm normal for some reason when I am.  Like, "it's like hello" and no one thinks I'm mature because the people monitoring me in private think I shouldn't speak yet still suffer with this.  It's like I'm being challenged.  It's like taking advantage of me and believing I am in trouble like it's just play, by other people.  So, while I'm considered delinquent, she thrives and takes advantage of the fact that she knows now how people think I'm in trouble and celebrates it wasn't her.  She is explaining life! to people by constanting wallowing in the mud pool of my supposedly being in trouble, like it's smart to notice I'm in trouble and not do that and comment on it and repriamand me like crazy in creative ways.  Mostly, it's her talking about something we already know, like a tool to entertain us.  So, just know how I'm in trouble and elaborate off that in the way that is uniquely you and never feel in trouble anyone but me.  Just showing her positive spirit that we don't do what I'm supposedly in trouble for, like "we already know" too though but like it's a mysetery still to everyone being solved every day by her messages she's left.  That's so weird.  She "doesn't afraid of anything" and people use all this too look up to her as a role model, among other prejudices in her favor.  I still haven't said it quite right.  You know, it's seen as hard by people in Orlando, but it's just chosing an easy situation and making it elaborate.

Monday, April 6, 2020

"Interesting" One to Leave out On?

Supposedly, the older lady I like does all these things to help me, but I know she just "has" to follow I'm in trouble when I shouldn't be.  It's something in it for her, which is nice.

If you met me, you'd think I was perfectly fine.  But, no, people found "stupid" reasons and explanations for why they needed to do this.

Chores

I have so many chores to do.

Sunday, April 5, 2020

Violin?

It's not about how good you are, it's about how young you got to start.

Update

I added my Problems blog to the side of my main blog.

Friday, April 3, 2020

Message Board Post by Me

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Re: Is Ellen Degeneres actually mean?

I guess we all have our "peculiarities."

She can do whatever she wants, though, it seems… If someone big came along, supposedly she wouldn't feel anything is too different, she's still Ellen, but some things in life- She might only hate people like me. …

Trap

It's like I'm a trap for good people to talk to, like I'm a trick and not really a good person myself.

What's important?

It's important for the older lady I like and not me, in a given situation.

Need

I wonder if the older lady I like has problems if she wants attention and love.

Message Board Post by Me

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Re: Is Ellen Degeneres actually mean?

Yea, but she doesn't need to single me out like I'm different and severely exploit my relationships with other adults, but she acts like she didn't do it sometimes. Life does not end on her stage.

It could have been at least fun, but it's like there's something wrong, like hurting me and making me worrying about the relationships I had is fueling world peace and elevating my older relationships who are more privileged, so it's like I have nothing and don't deserve anything, meaning those relationships or at least just one of my favorites.

She wants to make sure I don't feel sexual gratification but does it excessively and too much in "naughty" ways to older adults I know, like that's okay. In the end, my relationships act like it's too dangerous to continue to have a good relationship in some ways.

I mind my own business, but then this happens. It's like the OJ sensation.


*I forgot to add I think it's like Ellen DeGeneres is sitting there listening and waiting for me to be done, like saying in a prissy way, "Okay," and then that it meant nothing, like she took the blow like a mother should.  I don't want to talk about this actually, I'm trying to stay on the safe side, but people are acting ignorant, felt like they were incessant about things like my mom's death being the result of me watching Ellen DeGeneres for some reason, when I thought it was the racist people in Orlando that probably stressed her out and gave her cancer.  It's another issue unto itself, as well, though.

Thursday, April 2, 2020

Message Board Post by Me

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Re: Is Ellen Degeneres actually mean?

She does seem to leap ahead, and it seems all choices socially won't get me out of trouble.

People act like they must follow Ellen DeGeneres's or maybe other celebrities' supposed/optional directions and tell people, such as me, that I did something very bad and must suffer, that compared to others I deserve nothing out of life but to be humble and hard-working socially and merit without being approved of.

The only thing wrong I said about her was that if anyone does have qualms about her. Also, she acts like it's under pressure, like many, who don't seem ready to tackle certain things in life, instead, or find some other way to see things and make life interesting like art. For others in general, it's probably just Late Boomers in the world finding themselves naked in the Garden of Eden and needing to find some coverups.


I'm sorry about the famous singer Mariah Carey who I've heard of. It's too bad she was uncomfortable with that on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" or that it was revealed against her liking.

Stimulation

It's funny how stimulation is always available for Late Boomers and their Generation Z kids.

I'm getting hungry.

I'm fasting for a blood test.  I'm not "starving to death," but I'm up, too.

Wednesday, April 1, 2020

Question - My Race

People used to not be able to tell I wasn't all white.

A Poor Community Socially

Say, someone has problems and race is sometimes involved.  Some people want to make it worse for them, like complaining there are only so many people in the world.

Accepting All Types of White People

If you're not the best and have an unfair life, people will say you should be considered worse than all others and the many who are worse than you.

People are beat for not accepting people who are "different," like if they're not "symmetrically" attractive in their body, like Marilyn Monroe.  It's just another way of being European that is either equal or better, people agree, though they still point out the differences.

Halting Other Races

Non-white race affects opportunity to move up racially and socially and also involves being forced to move down.

Career Question

What do you think I should do for a career?