Monday, April 6, 2020

"Interesting" One to Leave out On?

Supposedly, the older lady I like does all these things to help me, but I know she just "has" to follow I'm in trouble when I shouldn't be.  It's something in it for her, which is nice.

If you met me, you'd think I was perfectly fine.  But, no, people found "stupid" reasons and explanations for why they needed to do this.

Chores

I have so many chores to do.

Sunday, April 5, 2020

Violin?

It's not about how good you are, it's about how young you got to start.

Update

I added my Problems blog to the side of my main blog.

Friday, April 3, 2020

Message Board Post by Me

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Re: Is Ellen Degeneres actually mean?

I guess we all have our "peculiarities."

She can do whatever she wants, though, it seems… If someone big came along, supposedly she wouldn't feel anything is too different, she's still Ellen, but some things in life- She might only hate people like me. …

Trap

It's like I'm a trap for good people to talk to, like I'm a trick and not really a good person myself.

What's important?

It's important for the older lady I like and not me, in a given situation.

Need

I wonder if the older lady I like has problems if she wants attention and love.

Message Board Post by Me

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Re: Is Ellen Degeneres actually mean?

Yea, but she doesn't need to single me out like I'm different and severely exploit my relationships with other adults, but she acts like she didn't do it sometimes. Life does not end on her stage.

It could have been at least fun, but it's like there's something wrong, like hurting me and making me worrying about the relationships I had is fueling world peace and elevating my older relationships who are more privileged, so it's like I have nothing and don't deserve anything, meaning those relationships or at least just one of my favorites.

She wants to make sure I don't feel sexual gratification but does it excessively and too much in "naughty" ways to older adults I know, like that's okay. In the end, my relationships act like it's too dangerous to continue to have a good relationship in some ways.

I mind my own business, but then this happens. It's like the OJ sensation.


*I forgot to add I think it's like Ellen DeGeneres is sitting there listening and waiting for me to be done, like saying in a prissy way, "Okay," and then that it meant nothing, like she took the blow like a mother should.  I don't want to talk about this actually, I'm trying to stay on the safe side, but people are acting ignorant, felt like they were incessant about things like my mom's death being the result of me watching Ellen DeGeneres for some reason, when I thought it was the racist people in Orlando that probably stressed her out and gave her cancer.  It's another issue unto itself, as well, though.

Thursday, April 2, 2020

Message Board Post by Me

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Re: Is Ellen Degeneres actually mean?

She does seem to leap ahead, and it seems all choices socially won't get me out of trouble.

People act like they must follow Ellen DeGeneres's or maybe other celebrities' supposed/optional directions and tell people, such as me, that I did something very bad and must suffer, that compared to others I deserve nothing out of life but to be humble and hard-working socially and merit without being approved of.

The only thing wrong I said about her was that if anyone does have qualms about her. Also, she acts like it's under pressure, like many, who don't seem ready to tackle certain things in life, instead, or find some other way to see things and make life interesting like art. For others in general, it's probably just Late Boomers in the world finding themselves naked in the Garden of Eden and needing to find some coverups.


I'm sorry about the famous singer Mariah Carey who I've heard of. It's too bad she was uncomfortable with that on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" or that it was revealed against her liking.

Stimulation

It's funny how stimulation is always available for Late Boomers and their Generation Z kids.

I'm getting hungry.

I'm fasting for a blood test.  I'm not "starving to death," but I'm up, too.

Wednesday, April 1, 2020

Question - My Race

People used to not be able to tell I wasn't all white.

A Poor Community Socially

Say, someone has problems and race is sometimes involved.  Some people want to make it worse for them, like complaining there are only so many people in the world.

Accepting All Types of White People

If you're not the best and have an unfair life, people will say you should be considered worse than all others and the many who are worse than you.

People are beat for not accepting people who are "different," like if they're not "symmetrically" attractive in their body, like Marilyn Monroe.  It's just another way of being European that is either equal or better, people agree, though they still point out the differences.

Halting Other Races

Non-white race affects opportunity to move up racially and socially and also involves being forced to move down.

Career Question

What do you think I should do for a career?

Tuesday, March 31, 2020

Do you rest for a week during Spring Break?  Do you work or exercise in the summer?

Monday, March 30, 2020

Did everyone turn into Egyptian pharaohs and I'm the 1 worker?  "Oh, you don't need greatness in life!"  Post-2000s bullshit.
White people from Europe are mean to people who are mixed American and non-American parents.