Mulan comes out tomorrow!

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Old Pictures of Me

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I lost pictures and videos in Hurricane Katrina in 2005.

me at age 15 or 16

just holding a violin

me at age 16

They already took away important things from my relationship but gave it to others.  Even if I do it anyway they say they are serious and mess up something.

Me Singing Now

(In the title it tells you to skip 2:35-3:19.)

Why don't other people admit they wish they were like glamorous people or do it?

People worry about me possibly beating some Late Boomers.

I know why the Freiburger Barockorchester "even" played and why so soon..

To get it over with and get popular.

Other people joke about me and others being different ethnically.

I accept people, but I'm not "the one."

Life seems to be getting more and more worthless, less reasons to do things, like posting more online, and no I am not "running out of things to do in the world."

In community arts etc., the teachers/directors get more attention than the performers because they are the only ones who made it a full or part time professional career.

Somehow, I feel chased away.  What are we supposed to do when we want to meet older people who have children with other people who get to be with them?

I used to do more work in school than others and be humble about it ... if you do it and you are younger than me by a certain amount, a Late Boomer will be impressed.  Instead, I'm trapped being treated badly now.

"On a Roll"

People who actually do something win people's hearts in the end.

About Being Impressive

Remember, quality versus quantity.

About Going Along Fine

People let you get ahead if you're not as mixed race as others.

If you think you're good at something with your peers and you're more mixed race, people think you're bad showing off, like you should "go to ****," almost literally.

Limited Access Due to Generation and Race

You know how you only can tell some things if you're a Late Boomer or their Generation YZA kid?  Same thing with race in some places apparently, if you don't fit in, like here in Orlando then you can't be amazing because you're also identified and shut out socially in that way.  I guess none of you people want to give it a try.

Overly Sensitive and Apologetic, Secretly Competitive - Also Defines the US

What do you think of people who act overly sensitive and apologetic but seem to do it sort of "standing in front of you," like maybe you're still "cool" to others though you're doing things right just without all the weird yet amazing humbled effects applied?

They tend to have light brown hair and brown eyes, no offense to anyone.  Just try to get a word in and they won't notice you much unless you're popular...

I plan to take ballet, again.

A beginning ballet class again, twice a week.

I'm excited...

• long sleeve black leotards
• black ballet slippers (double sole)
• black tights (with opening at bottom of feet)
• black leg warmers (to cover the muscular figure of my legs)
• black wrap around skirt (I tried one stretchable skirt and it rolled up, didn't have a band though I think
• black underwear
• black sports bras with padding
• black elastic band for ponytail, with some hair hanging on the side because it's too short to tie up
• black duffel bag with a shoe compartment and 1/2 wet/dirty section 1/2 dry/clean section

1 reason I am taking it is to stay in shape, too, but I do like it and because it's fun and athletic.

I took gymnastics when I was little, and so I guess in ballet last resort hard to remember steps for me.

Dance Recital Clip

They can already turn and have good sensitivity.